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Friday, April 24th, 2009

Subject:forever daddy's girl :(
Time:2:16 am.
Try your very best to find all of the pictures asked for. Use Facebook or the pictures stored in your computer. If you can't find one, that's okay. But leave all questions in the survey for others to find. :)

1. A picture of you in your room

... nothing happened :p not that it's any of your business.



2. A picture of you posing with someone you don't actually like

H8CHU. Pero salamat sa pagpunta sa lamay ni Papa.



3. A picture with a former crush.

Hindi man kami nagkatuluyan sa huli, siya pa rin ang first love ko. (2006 pa to...)





4. A picture of you very drunk.

I don't drink :|



5. A picture of you with a parent or two.

:(

Our last picture together :( I MISS YOU.



6. A picture of you on your birthday, or your favorite holiday.

This is my favorite day :(



7. A picture of you from your younger years.

in my Papa's arms :(



8. A picture of you in one of your favorite outfits.

My Papa and I went to an Ukay Ukay. He picked some clothes out for me pa hahaha.



9. A picture of you making a goofy face at the camera.



10. A picture you might have edited to make yourself more attractive.

Okay. It didn't work.



11. A picture of you and a team or club you're in.

TEAM CHINESE IMMIGRANTS. (Dehesa Family)



BROKEN HEARTS AND FLYING PURPLE UNICORNS CLUB. (what?)



Wala si MJ at Sam So dito.



12. A picture of a night you regret...

Nalaman ko na may sakit si Papa.



13. A picture of you showing off a new haircut. (even if it's an old haircut)



14. A picture of you truly being yourself.



15. Your most recent picture.

I don't want to take pictures anymore.

16. A picture of you being absolutely ridiculous.



17. A picture you're tagged in on Facebook that you aren't actually in.

Guess which. Obviously yung dancer. Duh.




18 .A picture of a time in your life that's over, but you wish it wasn't.

After you were gone, I opened your car and saw pictures. You had written captions on them and it broke my heart because I never showed you all of our pictures... I was always too busy with other things.




19. A picture of a time in your life that's over, and you couldn't be more thankful that it is.

I wish I could go back to any time in my life before April 10.

If I could steal one final glance
One final step, one final dance with him
I'd play a song that would never, ever end
Cause I'd love, love, love to dance with my father
again

20. A picture with your oldest friends.



21. A picture with your newest friends.

My older brother.



22. A picture of you when you were anything but happy... even if you were smiling and did your best to hide it.



23. A picture of you that you had no idea was being taken.

Christian was taking a picture of our hands.



24. A picture of you when you were a different person than you are now

Wordstruck days.



25. A picture of you in a fashion "DON'T"



26. A picture of you in a swimsuit - whether you love it or loathe it

I don't want to post my picture. Here's the swimsuit, though.



27. A picture of you taking a shot / chugging a beer / downing some sort of mixed drink

I'm holding it but I didn't drink it.

I MISS THIS.



28. A picture of yourself that you hate

I hate this because I always begged you to let me drive and now I wish you could drive me again.



29. A picture of you with someone you love



30. A picture of how you'd like the world to see you

A ~*STAR*~ Hahaha.



31. A picture that describes how you'd like to spend every day



32. A picture of a time when everything was changing



33. A picture that makes your heart hurt

I WILL MISS THIS.



34. A picture that makes your heart smile



35. A picture of one of the best times of your life



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Monday, January 12th, 2009

Subject:Paying It Back for Mang Meliton a.k.a "Mang Milton" - From http://mikersindahawz.multiply.com
Time:11:42 pm.
Mood: sad.
Meet Meliton Zamora, a retired University of the Philippines janitor and my hero.

For forty-five years, he swept floors, cleaned up trash, watered plants and did odd jobs at the University.

I met him when I was active with the UP Repertory Company, a theater group based (then) at the third floor lobby of the Arts & Sciences (AS) building. He would sweep and mop the hallway floors in silence, venturing only a nod and a smile whenever I passed him.

Back then, for me he was just one of those characters whom you got acquainted with and left behind as soon as you earned your degree and left the university for some big job in the real world. Someone whose name would probably ring a bell but whose face you'd have a hard time picturing. But for many UP students like me who were hard up and had a difficult time paying their tuition fees, Mang Mel was a hero who gave them the opportunity to finish university and get a big job in the real world.

The year was 1993 and I was on my last semester as a Clothing Technology student. My parents had been down on their luck and were struggling to pay for my tuition fee. I had been categorized as Bracket 9 in the recently implemented Socialized Tuiton and Financial Assistance Program (STFAP). My father had lost his job and to supplement my allowance, I worked part time as a Guest Relations Officer at Sam's Diner (back when the term GRO didn't have shady undertones) and took some odd jobs as a Production Assistant, movie extra and wardrobe mistress.

To be eligible for graduation, I had to enroll in my last three courses and pay my tuition fee. Since my parents didn't have enough money for my matriculation, I applied for a student loan hoping that my one of my Home Economics (HE) professors would take pity on me and sign on as a guarantor for the student loan. But those whom I approached either refused or were not eligible as guarantors. After two unsuccessful weeks of looking for a guarantor, my prospects looked dim, my future dark. And so, there I was, a downtrodden twenty year old with a foggy future, crying in the AS lobby. I only had twenty four hours left to look for a guarantor.

Mang Mel, with a mop in hand, approached me and asked me why I was crying. I told him I had no guarantor for my student loan and will probably not be able to enroll this semester. I had no hopes that he would be able to help me. After all, he was just a janitor. He borrowed my loan application papers and said softly, "Puwede ako pumirma. Empleyado ako ng UP." He borrowed my pen and signed his name. With his simple act of faith, Mang Mel not only saved my day, he also saved my future.

I paid my student loan the summer after that fateful day with Mang Milton and it has been 15 years since then. I am not filthy rich but I do have a good job in the real world that allows me to support my family and eat three meals a day. A few weeks ago, a friend and UP Professor, Daki, told me that Mang Mel recently recorded an album which he sells to supplement his meager retirement pay, I asked another friend, Blaise, who's taking his Master's degree at UP to find out how we could contact Mang Mel. My gesture of gratitude for Mang Mel's altruism has been long overdue. As fate would have it, my friend saw Mang Mel coming out of the shrubbery from behind the UP library, carrying firewood. He got Mang Mel's address and promised him that we would come over to buy his album.

Together with Blaise and my husband Augie, I went to pay Mang Mel a visit last Sunday. Unfortunately, he was out doing a little sideline gardening for a UP professor in Tandang Sora. We were welcomed into their home by his daughter Kit. As she pointed out to a laminated photo of Mang Mel on the wall, she proudly told us that her father did retire with recognition from the University. However, she sadly related to us that many of the students whose loans Mang Mel guaranteed neglected to settle their student loans. After forty-five years of service to the University, Mang Mel was only attributed 171 days of work for his retirement pay because all the unpaid student loans were deducted from his full retirement pay of about 675 days. This seems to me a cruel repayment for his kindness.

This is a cybercall to anyone who did not get to pay their student loans that were guaranteed by Mang Mel. Anytime would be a good time to show Mang Mel your gratitude.

Mang Mel is not asking for a dole out, though I know he will be thankful for any assistance you can give. So I ask those of you who also benefited from Mang Meliton's goodness or for those who simply wish to share your blessings, please do visit Mang Mel and buy his CD (P350 only) at No. 16-A, Block 1, Pook Ricarte, U.P. Campus, Diliman, Quezon City (behind UP International House) or contact his daughter Kit V. Zamora at 0916-4058104.
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Saturday, April 15th, 2006

Subject:Pictures and a survey. I rock, I know.
Time:4:13 pm.
Mood: accomplished.
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I Miss: my family and friends who are so so so faaaaaaaaaaaar.
I Hear: the electric fan murmuring.
I Smell: nothing, actually.
I Crave: attention. Uh huh.
I Worry: I won't get the job after all.
I Regret: nothing... seriously.
I Love: my mommy =)
I Always: humiliate myself. It's like I have a nagging need to embarass myself all the time.
I Dance: well. Prolly the only thing I can do.
I Sing: really badly.
I Dream: at night. Ha.
I Can't Stand: waiting
I Lose: at sports and such.
I Like: getting pampered and doing charity work. Outreaches = <333333
I Listen: to Christian Bautista and The Cure.
I Can Usually Be Found: in front of the PC. Boo.
I Need: to get that job.
I Know: I deserve better.
I Hope: I get a call soon saying, "Hey, the position's still open and we want you, we want you, we want you as our new recruit!"
I Want: myspace comments.
I Obsess: about my skin. I HAVE BAD SKIN.
I Wish: I had better skin. And that they would give me the job for sure.
I Cry: over the silliest stuffffff.
I Fell: ... uh.
I Believe: I can fly?
I can’t: let gooooooooo!
I lost: my dignity last night. I SAID I WOULDN'T TALK TO YOU BUT I DID. DAMN.
I saw: your girl friend and dayum, downgrade!!
I found: true friends, yay!
I survived: youth camps?
I think: Christian is secretly madly in love with me.
I am: yours!
I have: yoooooou.
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Wednesday, April 5th, 2006

Subject:Finally.. =D
Time:7:52 pm.
Because I'm feeling just about as creative as a dish rag, I'm sticking all sorts of pictures here. Hey what? They're supposed to be worth a thousand words, bitches.

Seniors' retreat at Bethlehem House of Prayer, Tagaytay last March 7-9 =)

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Farewell party last March 23 at HSS Social Hall

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My graduation last March 28.

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MY HAIR DID NOT LOOK GOOD ON CAMERA. DAMN.
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Thursday, February 23rd, 2006

Time:11:10 am.
Mood:blabby.
Christian has no idea how happy he makes me. Do you like this picture better? More importantly... do you like this guy better? Because I do, thank you. Tell me he is not adorable and I will shake some sense into you. I am going through the same thing I went through a while ago again, only this time, it's definitely worse because I know what's going to happen! I'm not just taking a chance at something I'm not sure of anymore. I'm risking everything for something that I know will not work, and that's not even what disturbs me the most. I am deeply bothered by the fact that I am willingly giving him a right to hurt me. I KNOW BETTER THAN THIS. I should lead him on like I've done with every other guy I've known before he is even a mile away from meaning anything to me but a quick ego fix. But he's more than that. More than someone who makes me feel better by flattering the heck out of me. More than someone who entertains me with his vulnerability. More than someone who I just play around with because I know it won't last. Because you know what? THIS CAN LAST. It really, really can. At least, I want to. And that's something new. Kind of.
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Tuesday, February 7th, 2006

Subject:Another picture post because I am boring like that =)
Time:7:01 pm.
Mood: sad.


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I'm the one on the far LEFT, duh.

I heard the reverberating footsteps
sinking up to the beating of my heart,
and I was positive that unless I got myself together,
I would watch me fall apart.

Sangkalan, QC - February 5, 2006 ♥

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I'm an ugly girl, yes.

When you try your best but you don't succeed
When you get what you want but not what you need
When you feel so tired but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse

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Friday, May 27th, 2005

Subject:I love Relient K. I LOVE YOU JESUS! <3
Time:9:54 pm.
Mood: energetic.
"For The Moments I Feel Faint"

Am I at the point of no improvement?
What of the death I still dwell in?
I try to excel, but I feel no movement.
Can I be free of this unreleasable sin?

[Chorus:]
Never underestimate my Jesus.
You're telling me that there's no hope.
I'm telling you you're wrong.

Never underestimate my Jesus
When the world around you crumbles
He will be strong, He will be strong

I throw up my hands
"Oh, the impossibilities"
Frustrated and tired
Where do I go from here?
Now I'm searching for the confidence I've lost so willingly
Overcoming these obstacles is overcoming my fear

[Chorus]

I think I can't, I think I can't
But I think you can, I think you can
I think I can't, I think I can't
But I think you can, I think you can
Gather my insufficiencies and
place them in your hands, place them in your hands, place them in your hands
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Subject:"We love because he first loved us." (1 John 4:19)
Time:9:27 pm.
Mood: bouncy.
This song ain't a praise and worship song, but as soon as I heard it, I knew it was God's way of reminding me that no matter what happens, he'll find a way to bring me back. =) I've spent the last two years moping around just because some guy doesn't give a damn about me even if I go out of my way for him to notice me. I just realized recently that Jesus has also been trying to catch my attention, but I never pay Him any mind. While I whine to my friends about how insensitive he is and how he never appreciates me, I do the same to Jesus. He has been waiting for 15 years. He's more than willing to wait longer. Even if my family disowns me, even if my friends turn away from me, He'll always be there for me. Heck, he died for me. I don't deserve to be loved as much as He loves me. I will never be able to love Him half as much. But I'll try. I understand now that God let my heart be broken so I could be enlightened by the Holy Spirit. =D I now know what it means to love unconditionally. And with this, I know that from now on, God's love for me will no longer be unrequited.


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Wednesday, March 23rd, 2005

Time:6:32 pm.
Mood: hot.
I'll be back on Easter Sunday. :)
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Friday, March 11th, 2005

Subject:Because everyone ♥ pictures
Time:11:25 pm.
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Time:11:07 pm.
Mood: bouncy.
I'm going on a self-imposed hiatus (sounds somewhat redundant, I know. Stfu.) / break from the computer from tomorrow (that's March 12) until March 18 (Friday) or 19 (Saturday) because the final exams are on Tuesday and Wednesday (15 and 16) and I haven't studied, like, at all. After the exams, I might come back because I won't have anything else to do anyway, but I want to prove to myself that I can abstain from using the net, so I will, at least until the 18th.

I'll comment and update as soon as I can. You guys'll be in my thoughts and I know you're flattered. ♥

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P.S.
there is NOTHING like having your own father tell you you are worthless. takes one to know one, thanks.
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Time:6:41 pm.
Ehem. Can someone put my username butterfly08 in this icon? Please and thank you!
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Thursday, March 10th, 2005

Subject:I KNOW YOU'LL READ IT ALL. I'm good like that.
Time:10:40 pm.
Mood: accomplished.
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But somehow it feels like it's half the thrill of something, of anything, to not anticipate, to never expect. It's like living life but never really enjoying it because you always think things will take a turn for the worse any given minute. Sometimes you just gotta go with the flow, do what you think and feel you should, even if you think that the results won't come out in your favor. Falling in love is fun, and if you always say that this boy can very well break your heart, you lose trust. Yes, provided that he just might, it was your decision to give it to him, anyway. Well maybe not your decision, but it wasn't his decision either. It's his, and trust me on this one, he has a reason for everything.

Even for this depressing state of loneliness that I'm in. *sigh* I can't believe your actually leaving. Oh well, at least I won't ever regret not telling you up front, because, hi, I DID! And I didn't get any "it's not you it's me" speeches, either. I got a stronger friendship with you, and a best friend in the form of Isaac. Life is sweet and I am moody. Emo one second, content and chirpy the next. :) Yipee.
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Friday, February 11th, 2005

Subject:cheer up, emo kid ♥
Time:11:00 pm.
Mood: giggly.
i know this will ruin your friends' page, so go bitch. ;)

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i love you! =) i'll love you even more if you tell me what to do with my hair! don't forget pictures!

p.s.
comment if you want me to do some lj-cuttinggggg. ok so i just want replies! yay! i still love you! do you love me, too? hehe!
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Friday, December 24th, 2004

Subject:♥♥♥
Time:2:29 pm.
Mood: Christmas-y lmao..
Ayez un Joyeux Noël, chacun! Faites attention et Dieu bénissent, des chéris! Vous savez je t'aime.

Toujours,
Therese.

Have a merry christmas, everyone. Take care and God bless, darlings. You know I love you.

Always,
Therese.
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Thursday, December 9th, 2004

Time:9:26 pm.
Mood: calm.
Hi. I'm going on a long break from GJ, LJ and some other sites online just because my schedule is getting quite tight and I'm pretty busy. I also happen to be frustated at everything for no particular reason. I'm just tired and ugh I can't handle this anymore. I don't understand why blogging has brought me so much pressure lately when it's supposed to help me relax and let out a lot of pent-up feelings. I guess it's all about the way you handle it. I'm prolly just not cut out for this whole online journal thing anymore. Whatever, really. I want everyone to know that I'm still happy I kept a gj/lj for so long, specially because I met most of you guys because of it. Let me just say that you are all awesome, and I love you people to the nth power! I'm sorry for the mistakes I've committed against you. I don't think I meant those, but still, I apologize for those, if any. I'm really thankful for our friendship, kids and I can't express my gratitude enough because you've all been so great. =) ♥

Love,
Therese

P.S.
Leave me your e-mail address and contact info, like sn for AIM or Y!M. I'd like to keep in touch.

P.P.S.
Keep me if you wish. I'll be around to comment every few entries and post occassionally. ;p
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Saturday, August 7th, 2004

Subject:Sorry
Time:8:49 am.
I might leave LJ soon. Can't handle both journals, as you may have noticed. Give me a few days to think it over, then I'll decide.

I love you all.

Riz <3
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Wednesday, June 9th, 2004

Subject:FRIENDS ONLY
Time:12:57 am.
Mood: good.
After much deliberation, I have decided to make my LJ friends only too.



Why, you ask?
Because I want to know who the hell is reading this. I am aware that there are some pathetic lurkers out there who are too shy or scared to comment. Apart from that, for all I know, people who know me personally may be reading this at leisure and are actually talking about me behind my back. I don’t want everybody to be privy to my diary entries, unless I want them to. Not that I have anything to hide, thankyouverymuch I just won’t let anyone read this without my consent because this is me, stripped of all labels.

Please do not assume that you know me well just because you and have access to various information about me and read my archives (which I will keep public, just because I am a very lazy busy girl and I can’t devote a few hours changing it to private) I am aware I share a part of myself, and my life through my blog and the calendar, which you have access to but whatever it is that you may know about me does not give you the right to judge me hastily. There is more to me than I choose to divulge on this blog. I choose to keep it that way.

If you want to know Therese away from the net, I repeat(because I have mentioned it up there, bozo), don’t be a stalker. Comment on this entry, and I will think about adding you. So don’t add me till I tell you to do so. Esta claro? (Like xenia would say. Heh.)
So, if you are convinced that you want me to be part of your world (all my GJ friends are real pals to me) you must be nice and of course, you must have a few things in common with myself. But I’m not looking for an exact replica of myself, either. Diversity is beautiful. Make sure you:

Want to add me to be my friend, not just another addition to your friends list to give everyone the impression that you are popular because you have lots of friends (that is so nineties!)
Post a few times a week.
Comment a lot. (because I do too)
Type like an adult, so I can understand you. Talk like a literate would.

A last warning, if you may…

You may find some entries contained here dramatic, strange, ridiculous or downright shallow. Guess what, kids? I don’t care. Don’t laugh at my expense because for all we know, in this crazy world, you might end up being in the exact position. Don’t judge me right away because nobody has a right to judge anyone else. Don’t take the decisions I make regarding dilemmas I face against me. This is my life and I tend to do what I think is best. I am, of course, open to polite, well-meaning unsolicited advice from people who care. Don’t reply with bitchy comments at my entries, you might be surprised to find that I fight back. Let us not forget that this is my space and I am the only one who can be mean (in moderation, mind you). I am a friendly and approachable girl, but if you dare provoke me, minion, you shall meet your doom. Try to be as considerate as possible. If you can’t, get a life and stop wasting mine.

Love lots,
Therese
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Friday, June 4th, 2004

Time:8:08 pm.
Mood: awake.
Rather boring day. I spent most of it online, which just proves that I have no life.

Boo.

Btw, Xenia (burlesqued) I really love your site. I was wondering if you'd come up with a new skin soon. Also, thanks for inviting me to the www.starfaen.org/boards I really love it there. Also how can I make an avatar?

I just realized I shouldn't have posted that here. I really am a shameless plugger (of the message boards). :P I'll just catch up with her at YM.

This is the end of another useless post. Thankyouverymuch.

Love,
Rizzie
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Thursday, June 3rd, 2004

Subject:I hate my brother.
Time:5:40 pm.
We have a chocolate caramel roll at home and I was eating. He took a slice and asked me what it was for. I said "No reason. I just wanted some" And he said: "You get every thing you want." Typical. Asshole, you get whatever you want too. And I'm a better person than you are. Get a clue.

I hate you.
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